by channe » Mon Jan 14, 2008 2:13 pm
Morning.
Agnieszka wakes in a terrified breath of foul air; the dilapidated Sawyer Street shack she won in a poker game at her brother's favorite hangout. She stays there, now and again, when she feels the need for solitude, but the place is still fouled with the former owner's inability to keep clean, and the cot and blanket she'd dragged there the only furniture. A moment's delusion finds her hands searching for a sleeve that isn't there, a woman who is miles away, all of them, miles away, mercifully alive.
Morning.
She struggles up to her feet. She dresses. She cries. She spends some time sopping up the blood with that dirty bedsheet. She fashions minor bandages. And then she slides her coat on and steps out onto the street. People stare at the name on her neck; she lifts her chin, she walks, she smells the outhouses and the bacon cooking, sees the children running, the sky grey and forbidding.
Morning.
She'd had a life-changing conversation the previous afternoon. A life-changing dream the night after. She was in pain, great pain; she stumbled, legs unsure. She struggled to walk. She struggled to talk.
So she refused to.
Silently, she walks from the slums to the merchants' row, and silently purchases a pair of lovely black leather boots with ties up the front, boots she'd had fitted at the cobbler's so many weeks ago; oh, these Rosamaria Rameriz would be proud of. She buys black hair-ribbons and pins, stops by a tailor to have some measurements taken, all of it silent, silent, silent, and leaves, pausing for a moment outside a tavern. She'd love to enter, to drown it all in scotch, to --
-- No. She is alive. Somewhere, Aeryn is alive. Cinnabar. Ariane. The stupid elf and that damned insane Constable.
The best way to win is to not acknowledge it happened at all.
The best way to win is to wake up.
She walks back into the tailor's, pointing to the extra material they'd spoken about earlier. The tailor watches her quizzically as she takes it and wraps Glenn Burnie's name behind a swath of black linen, knotting it at her throat.
It's morning. The Dreamwaker's day. And the brand-new Captain Kaczmarek knows exactly what she needs to do.