It is a dream.
Knowing this alone is frightening. But James, so tangibly beside her, is enough to slow the adrenaline, to pause, to look, to smell, to touch the reality of it. This is not her dream, it cannot be. James was so near and not even Zilliah could break the barrier put around her.
But it must be. The place is not a real place. It is her room in the Dagger lined with hundreds of volumes from floor to ceiling, it is the bed from the palace in Thessilane; it is a place where the corners recede forever into shadow and windows that each face a different scene, some day and some night, none geographically possible. Yet, all of these were hers – the way she remembered each in turn. It was the memory of summer at the beach as a child, it was the Dagger in winter when she’d first come, it was Myrken Town.
It was perfect and beautiful, perhaps even a gift. And though James slept, her slender hand would so gently brush his cheek. She didn’t dare wake him, but they had never shared a bed, not like this.
And then came the smoke. Trickling in at first, just a hint that gave her cause to sit up and find a source. The windows righted themselves and when she looked to the town she saw it ablaze.
“James,” her heart rose in her chest as she stood and fled to the window, “James the town!”
But when he didn’t respond she turned to find the bed was gone, books had begun collapsing in, the walls licked with flame were melting, oozing with blood colored honey. Books fallen open on the floor began to scream and sing, cacophonous as it all burned.
No, no. This had been a real, proper dream. One always woke from dreams.
Her palms planted firmly over her ears, Genny ran across the room and headfirst through the glass into a wintery Myrken night. With a hard landing, glass in her hand, blood everywhere, and realizing quickly she had caught on fire Genny frantically rolled in the snow. But it didn’t burn. It was her hair; flickering and flowing like flames, illuminating her path. Where? Anywhere.
The trees here moaned in pain, the snow was like razors, and a wolf lurked. It took everything in her, within this familiar nightmare, to put one foot in front of the other. And still she wept.
And when, if ever she woke, at whatever late hour; tears and blood streaming from her face and her ears red from pressure, she would go straight to James. There was nothing more urgent, no excuse for another night alone.
